goddamn

time really did fly..especially this year. im surprisingly nonchalant about graduation being tomorrow. i dont know it hasnt hit me all that much yet. i feel like the more i hype up graduating and going to college and having the best time ever or what ever everyone raves about..itll be whack by the time im doin it all. sooooo in conclusion, im just goin with the flow from here. a lot is new! im currently a new employee at hollisterrrr. i love the smell, and the music, and how i had to purchase new attire just for this job..not really though. what else is new..my dog has kidney failure.. :[ hes on an IV and everything. just looking at him makes my days suck more dick. pray for him please? i wanna go shopping and fucking update my closet. after freshman year i just stopped buying new clothes for school..ahhaahah i gave up. i straight up lost my self and had an identity crisis all through out hs. i hate that..i hate how being in high school makes you second guess your self and what youre supposed to be like and who youre supposed to be with and how you automatically feel the need to bandwagon one way or another. i had the fattest epiphany today! i love fresh new starts and i feel like after tomorrow ill be able to throw everything ive ever known out the window and start all over again. no more being lazy, start being more goal oriented, no more lagging or slacking, no more saying one thing then doing another, no more being unmotivated,no more hiding behind the people im already comfortable with, and DEFINITELY no room for failing. i have so many thoughts about the future! my brain works too fast in too many damn directions