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got my ass squeezed my sexy cupid and now he wants to play a love game

funniest ever

where do i begin. seeing as how its 3 am right now and cant sleep..i thought i might as well get all these goddamn thoughts out of my head. the past few weeks..this past month has been upppps and downnnnss. from 30 amazing proms, getting in trouble someway somehow after prom, getting caught up with my mom. running away having my friends pick me up and having my back, bad grades and then fixing them to make em good, soccer, movin in between jobs like crazy. ughhhhhh graduation is so soon. and i know i used to say it so goddamn much before how much i hate school and cant wait to graduate. and yeah..i DO hate school..and i DO wanna graduate. but dont get me wrong. im gonna definitely miss the simplicities of high school. like jenbunney says..it only gets harder from here. My plans to move out and do big things has pretty much crumbled to shit pieces because jenny isnt even going to fullerton anymore..its so weird how fate happens. goddamn it jen! had to fuck it all up! hahh but its ok i was scared of leaving anyways..maybe it really wasnt meant to be. Ive been thanking about my beloved leaving to san fran so so so soon and i really cant handle it lately. im sorry if i push you or joke around about staying here but you have to understand that im just being selfish. i dont want things to change between us and i know people always say that t things will work out and itll all be the same as where we left off but im just scared..im willing to try it out though. arent you scared? at all? idk i still wish you the best of course. buuuut as for havin a good time and partying or whatever the fuck. lemme just say that when you see someone at a party thats like ultra cute and that youve taken interest in..and hes a pussy..its a FUCKING turnoff. omg! haahahah i just need all these moments that bring me back to the reality of things. and as for you..we'll remain friends and you wont get anything more out of me. and as for you..im sorry that we ruined momentum after prom and couldnt quite seem to get our thoughts in order. or at least mine. and as for YOU i guess im still workin on you but honestly..im getting burnt out. ayalas prom this weekend! im soOooo not excited yet hahaaha but soon hopefully..maybe by tomorrow. tomorrows senior ditch day and i gots nooo idea what im gonna do. probably just go swimmin again and relax i dont even knowww. gahh! im ready for college! drama during the last weeks of school wasnt what i was expecting..i just hope we can all move on from that. cause i promise you its really, not, that, serious. theres so much shit ive been thinking about i just totally rambled on for like the past 10 or 12 minutes. sorry. more later..

Im setting a goal

its gonna be so hard, but sooo worth it. most important rule #1 dont let school be in the backseat!
im going to college to succeed and thats IT. looking for homes is so stressful! my papa sat me down to calculate what my expenses will be like but i have a plannn..even if it means reffing almost everday of my week :/
i got this though! watch me!
jess, jen, and i are gonna be doin some BIIIIIIIGGGGGGGGG things! hollerrr