fuck da blogspot

im on some othaa shit now! all late in the game hahaha. whatever. enjoy. holler.

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so what now

what is it that im supposed to do now when chandras gone, sarahs on some other shit with some other dumb girl,annies going incognito, jennys boyfriend occupied and if not, shes too busy dodging all my invites to hang out? shit just suuuuuckssssss ughhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

bagpipes from baghdad

omggg i like, LOVE Kim's new haaaaaair

I HATE COLLEGE

i mean goddamn its been a long fucking time since ive posted on this gay shit. but come on.
this summer has been so down! ive been having a lot of fun. I started summer school at cal poly, ive been working at hollister, my friends came back from vacation [except sarah] and ive been doing all the things ive been wanting to do. but what the hell happened? how the hell could i have a plan that was so foolproof just taken away from me. i had it in front of me and they pushed me further away from my dreams. I swear i didnt take it for granted! i swear i never thought i was too cool for that school! I swear i intended on changing my ways! I swear to GOD i was so excited for a fresh new start! but now honestly..i just feel low..and shitty. like im back to square one. Im on the same goddamn boat that i was on before. me slacking off, people looking down on me, judging me cause they know im lazy and not at all hardworking, like my worth= nothing, like im not ever going to make it in whatever the fuck i plan on doing. I honestly thought this was my chance for a fresh start. I didnt think that starting off at this brand new place was just a tease..like I had it all in my hand and now its gone. I still just dont get it. where do i go from here? well i know where to go..but I just dont know how to start. ahhhhh I have this huge feeling of self regret, disgust even! I feel so many things inside of me. I know its not the end of the world. You see, you just have to know how im looking at it, im looking at it as a symbol of how things are going to turn out. wrong turns never ever have good endings for me.. I cant be optimistic..I cant be hopeful or keep faith. I just feel low low low low. I would say i hate to feel sorry for my self or that i dont mean to..but..i wont lie i want you to! i want you to feel sorry for me so that i know at least someone gives two shits about me and my whereabouts. so here: all in all, my moms unemployed, my dads company is shit, my dog just died, I got my acceptance revoked, my parents pretty much hate me now, and now my house that ive lived in since i was 3 or 4..is in foreclosure. Im done, 2009 is just doing us dirt. goddamn it. godfucking damn it. I hate everything about today and the next two years

goddamn

time really did fly..especially this year. im surprisingly nonchalant about graduation being tomorrow. i dont know it hasnt hit me all that much yet. i feel like the more i hype up graduating and going to college and having the best time ever or what ever everyone raves about..itll be whack by the time im doin it all. sooooo in conclusion, im just goin with the flow from here. a lot is new! im currently a new employee at hollisterrrr. i love the smell, and the music, and how i had to purchase new attire just for this job..not really though. what else is new..my dog has kidney failure.. :[ hes on an IV and everything. just looking at him makes my days suck more dick. pray for him please? i wanna go shopping and fucking update my closet. after freshman year i just stopped buying new clothes for school..ahhaahah i gave up. i straight up lost my self and had an identity crisis all through out hs. i hate that..i hate how being in high school makes you second guess your self and what youre supposed to be like and who youre supposed to be with and how you automatically feel the need to bandwagon one way or another. i had the fattest epiphany today! i love fresh new starts and i feel like after tomorrow ill be able to throw everything ive ever known out the window and start all over again. no more being lazy, start being more goal oriented, no more lagging or slacking, no more saying one thing then doing another, no more being unmotivated,no more hiding behind the people im already comfortable with, and DEFINITELY no room for failing. i have so many thoughts about the future! my brain works too fast in too many damn directions

this is completely necessaaaary

say one thing to the last person you kissed:
kissed and meant it. goddd how did this happen so fast? our sparks just came and went, but i guess this is kharma? i dont like you, but i think i wish i would.
i did not see us being where were at right now, it makes me saddd..

Thing you're looking forward to?
meeting new people! its gonna be an amazing next couple of yearsssss

When you like someone, do you picture what your children will look like?
hahah im weird/ gay like that..but i guess it really isnt that serious.

What song did you hear last?
alain de courtenay- sing to you
so saaddddddd

Do you hate anyone?
well to name a few.. justkidding. i just get easily irritated, thas allll!

Do you enjoy dancing?
alwaysss

Who was the last person you texted & what did you talk about?
jamye, she helped me with my dumb fucking manuscript.

When is the last time someone of the opposite sex gave you a hug?
jon jon comforted me last night after making just about 39 drunk phone calls hahhaaha. he IS my perfect match and everything ;]

Do you have a best friend?
only the greatest

What's the first thing you did when you woke up this morning?
got pissed at sarah..i literally just laid my head down 10 minutes before she came in the room and yelled at me to get up.

Last person you went swimming with?
alyssa and kate!

Is there something you wish you could tell someone but can't?
before i graduate, i think i gotta do it. but not through this weak survey

Would you rather love one person or have many short relationships?
love one person. but i seem to only do the opposite
its hard to stay monogamous these days

If you were given the chance to go to Paris, would you go?
i went, i didnt have such a great tiime..

What are you currently hearing right now?
villain [not because it makes me feel like im the shit]

Were you happy when you woke up today?
no!

Would you kiss the last person you kissed again?
the VERY last person i kissed.. hahaha no no i wouldnt actually

Will this weekend be a good one?
hopefully much better than my last.. ;/
i have soccer though so i doubt it

Do you have a friend that is a complete and total flirt around everyone?
theres always those guys or girls

Do you like the movie "Step Brothers"?
OH MY GOD. come on now, my favorite will ferrell movie ever since anchor man.

Do you have feelings for the last person you kissed?
no no nonon ononono no

Do you prefer crushed ice or cubed?
ice cubed obviously

What is the longest you can wait patiently?
im really impatient, but im good at hiding it. promise.

Are your fingernails long or short?
got them fakes

How good are you at keeping secrets?
not good! unless you like spank me and tell me i absolutely cannot say anything..then i swear i wont.

Can you remember what you wore yesterday?
pink tube top, black shorts, jb's sandalias

Where did you last sleep?
couch with dan's

How many hours of sleep did you get last night?
like 11 minutes total

Will today be a good day?
im praying it will be. im just not ready to face yoooouuu though ]:

Last person to IM you?
i dont go on aim anymoreeeee

Last person to text you?
jamessss

What did you have for breakfast?
jack in the box hell yeahhhhh

Have you ever jumped off of a high dive?
mmm not so much

Do you write notes on your body?
my parents always used to get soooo mad at me!

What is the last thing someone bought you?
GAS

Who was the last person you talked to last night in person before bed?
dani and jon jon and marielle

Have you made a mistake this past week?
plenny plenny mistakes.. ughhhh

Do you drink tea?
loves it

What were you doing at 4am this morning?
takin care of my girl

goddddd

got my ass squeezed my sexy cupid and now he wants to play a love game

funniest ever

where do i begin. seeing as how its 3 am right now and cant sleep..i thought i might as well get all these goddamn thoughts out of my head. the past few weeks..this past month has been upppps and downnnnss. from 30 amazing proms, getting in trouble someway somehow after prom, getting caught up with my mom. running away having my friends pick me up and having my back, bad grades and then fixing them to make em good, soccer, movin in between jobs like crazy. ughhhhhh graduation is so soon. and i know i used to say it so goddamn much before how much i hate school and cant wait to graduate. and yeah..i DO hate school..and i DO wanna graduate. but dont get me wrong. im gonna definitely miss the simplicities of high school. like jenbunney says..it only gets harder from here. My plans to move out and do big things has pretty much crumbled to shit pieces because jenny isnt even going to fullerton anymore..its so weird how fate happens. goddamn it jen! had to fuck it all up! hahh but its ok i was scared of leaving anyways..maybe it really wasnt meant to be. Ive been thanking about my beloved leaving to san fran so so so soon and i really cant handle it lately. im sorry if i push you or joke around about staying here but you have to understand that im just being selfish. i dont want things to change between us and i know people always say that t things will work out and itll all be the same as where we left off but im just scared..im willing to try it out though. arent you scared? at all? idk i still wish you the best of course. buuuut as for havin a good time and partying or whatever the fuck. lemme just say that when you see someone at a party thats like ultra cute and that youve taken interest in..and hes a pussy..its a FUCKING turnoff. omg! haahahah i just need all these moments that bring me back to the reality of things. and as for you..we'll remain friends and you wont get anything more out of me. and as for you..im sorry that we ruined momentum after prom and couldnt quite seem to get our thoughts in order. or at least mine. and as for YOU i guess im still workin on you but honestly..im getting burnt out. ayalas prom this weekend! im soOooo not excited yet hahaaha but soon hopefully..maybe by tomorrow. tomorrows senior ditch day and i gots nooo idea what im gonna do. probably just go swimmin again and relax i dont even knowww. gahh! im ready for college! drama during the last weeks of school wasnt what i was expecting..i just hope we can all move on from that. cause i promise you its really, not, that, serious. theres so much shit ive been thinking about i just totally rambled on for like the past 10 or 12 minutes. sorry. more later..

Im setting a goal

its gonna be so hard, but sooo worth it. most important rule #1 dont let school be in the backseat!
im going to college to succeed and thats IT. looking for homes is so stressful! my papa sat me down to calculate what my expenses will be like but i have a plannn..even if it means reffing almost everday of my week :/
i got this though! watch me!
jess, jen, and i are gonna be doin some BIIIIIIIGGGGGGGGG things! hollerrr

shiet

"You may not be her first, her last, or her only. She loved before, she may love again. But if she loves you now, what else matters? She's not perfect - you aren't either, and the two of you may never be perfect together but if she can make you laugh, and cause you to think twice, and admit to being a human and making mistakes, hold on to her and give her the most you can. She may not be thinking about you every second of the day - but she will give you a part of her that she knows you can break - her heart. So don't hurt her, don't change her, don't analyze and don't expect more then she can give. Smile when she makes you happy, let her know when she makes you mad, and miss her when she's not there" -Bob Marley

whas goin on with me latelehhh?! this is so out of character.. but i like it ! <33

Fast paced

What i do: I think someones attractive in at least one or two aspects..I pursue or get pursued..i rush into things too quickly..my feelings and overwhelming thoughts get way ahead of me!.. I lust, i love, i disappppoint, i disappoint myself..I drift, I turn you off, I turn my self completeeely way way off..I over analyze..I make excuses.. I think of whats missing instead of whats there..I scare and get scared..I plot out every bad situation thats going to happen..I get rid of you..then there is no more you and me. seriously, dont date me. dont even talk to me..

As for everything else going on in life! Im chillin having a good time with the people around me who wanna treat me nicely and wanna find out how nice I can treat them back! spring break is starting up and im excited! knotts, six flags, beachin, pawwwrtttyyy, slip n slide! wheeeeeEeee, and whatever else there is. I definitely wanna go back to venice cause homeboy and i went for literally a quick minute to get something in particular and it was sooo sick out there so im sad we didnt get to stay too long..next time..maybe sometime this week. prom plans are coming along too! someway! somehow! jenny managed to schmooze me into it with a certain someone. haha im just dooooin my THANGGGGGGGG. goodnight, call me!

it dont phaseeee me!

hahaha shut the fuck up and stop acting like you didnt spend a good 15-30 minutes thinking about how fucking smart you could sound. im sure that my previous blog DIDNT PHASE YOU so much that you sent me this myspace message!
YouRe HAwttt RockStaRrr!

JUST SO WERE CLEAR

i wanna let it be known that i fucking hate JUSTIN DE JESUS! that fool is a fuckin bitch who fucks with boys and girls NOT his own age. I let you talk all the shit about me that you wanted so now its my fucking turn.he's fucking pathetic and fronts like hes some amazing extraordinary steezy ass idealistic goal driven insightful fucking hipster ass fuckhead motherfucker. get your shit together and stop causing negativity in everyone elses fucking life. youll never be happy because youre too damn insecure with your own goddamn self. most importantly, you took my best friend away. for this i will NEVER EVER FORGIVE YOU. because of you, she'll be dead forever. I wont even accept you as an acquaintance. get a life and grow the fuck up, get a hobby, SHIT. youre going downhill and fast, so stop trying to take everyone else down with you. youre unsuccessful now and thats how youll always be. get the fuck out of my face! fuckkkk!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

now, if you wanna meet up in person so i can repeat all of this, and then SOME to your face, the pleasure would seriously be ALL MINE. fucking dumbfuck.

Last you heard

I was into different people, into different things, into different drugs, and had no sadies date. as of NOW!
me and jen's new favorite song is poker face, my sadies date is the infamous adrian francis, and im lovin everything about my days/weeks/months. grades were good, my family is mellow yellow, and my favorite brother in the WHOLE ENTIRE WORLD :] moved back in..temporarily of course! STHLEEPOVER!!!! but at any rate. im excitedddd for the next couple of weeks!

sadies, creation, spring break,arshias birthday, sarahs birthday pawwrty, audiotistic, brothers birthday,PROMMMM!, graduation, garduation partyy! EDC. etccccc..

HOLLER! senior year really is sicky

sadies

who the FUCK and how the FUCK do i ask them who ever it is im asking???
help a sister out, seriously!

its MARCH!

already???!! damnnnn i never thought id be saying this but i kinna wish time would slow down a bit..or at least not let all the good times pass us by so quick! im too lazy, or maybe just over the whole telling you about my day shit so instead:

RULE NUMBER ONE MFUCKUH.

1. no facial hair
2. nice shoes, presentable clothing, fitted [enough] jeans not too tight not too loose,
3. mature food palette
4. creative, sweet, sthilly!
5. HILARIOUS
6. good ass dancer or die
7. cristal sippin
8. work, drive, make that cheddar
9. attentive, not obnoxiously on my dick though.
10. and last but we all know mos def. not LEAST. nice white teeth!

take notes Boyyyyy.

tired of waiting

youre not gonna come around my faith in you is running out! im just not gonna push you to be the person i wish you could constantly be or at least progressively become.. BLAH
so any hoots this weekend is coming to an end, took a weak placement exam FAILED THAT SHIT.. ill see you in remedial math this summer hahhhh. last night was..well..it was just a night. One of many other ones to come so i dont sweat the small things anymore. Tonight me and sarah are going to watch movies and im going to try to convince her to eat at the place that I FEEL LIKE EATING at. have fun and dont get toooo cuhrazyyy everyone. g'bye!

hey hi hello

Wanting for this week to be over basically. yay hooray for saturdaYYY

fuck the police

some fucker broke my camera, my whole body is sore, threatened to be taken "down to the station" on "two misdemeanors",a few angry mommys, too much 151, crystal and janie's friendship= dunzo, annies broken down mercedes, throwing rocks at baby j's window, random guys, upset sister jasmine, mayknees lost phone etc..

but on a lighter note! a new facebook

so tired but i cant sleep, rough weekend nonetheless there was never a dull moment hahaaaa

my tongues the only muscle of my body that works harder than my heart

Sometimes i wonder how things would've been in my life if i would've made different turns, talked to different people, played a different sport, got in to different things earlier on.. it's weird to me when i look at how people were back in elementary school and junior high, the transition into high school was rough but now everyones blossomed into what they'll be like in the future. SO WEIRD DUuUUuDE. Maybe this is just what happens to me when i have too much thinking time but i assure you, i never ever ever ever pictured myself looking and feeling the way i do today, doing the things i do, saying things and speaking the way i do.. life is a trip forsure! I want to evolve and find out who i really am as stupid and gay as that sounds.. i dont wanna grow up too fast, and i dont wanna miss one thing, but in some ways im just so excited..eager and curious more like, to see what endeavors lie ahead. Besides alla that mixed up bullshit in my mind. I can already tell that this weekend is just one of those listen to too many taylor swift songs, watch two too many scary movies on Friday the thirteenth, sleep late and wake up late in the day, dilly dally, questionable, boring-ass, somewhat rejuvenating, C H I L L weekends! Today me and sarah left school early got taco bell AGAIN, watched the ring at her house.. fell asleep and then woke each other up, i had work ate a bunch of pink and red cookies that i really shouldnt have but did anyway, napped at home, watched gothika and freddy vs. jason with my mamas, and fell asleep again. Now im here and for some reason im super awake and contemplating pulling an all nighter! hah!

dream sweet

p.s tell me they dont look exactly like each other?!
Linda Evangelista

Mila Jovovich

dont read this blog

this week= whack. pretty productive though, pacific fish grill, barnes and noble, colored my mom and dad pictures for V DAY, made some new cd's, "accidentally" forgot my book at home so i couldnt have tutor for too long today ahhhh NICEEEE, and most importantly! took plenty of naps.. this weekend is another 3-day weekendo. Thank G.O.D
nothings going down though and once again I dont have a valentine :[ but i doooo have this sexy video of allie crandell for the diesel hair bath ad.

Blood Is Thicker Than Water

muRrRrr..didnt do anything crazy this weekend but in exchangeeeee..spent a lot of time with the family. So many laughs, so many unnecessary moments, so much bitching and whining from just about everyone, and most importantttttlyyy time well spent together.my mumsys birthday on the 5th, my sisters birthday on the 6th, and my dads coming up on the 10th. two words: BRO. KEEEE. gahdamn!But its okayyyy I do it cause i love em!
Friday-managed to drive my self to walnut to see the infamous,montclair malllll, helped her look for some last minute wf ish, then akasaka, then brownies, then some myspacing haha.
Saturday- helped my bitches get ready, did some makeup, bounced out then had dinnnerrrr with my family at shima. It was good, went to go see taken! opened up some presents back at the house, knocked out at like 1130.
Today- today was almost TOO chill! did nothin but sleep and watch 90210 episodes i missed in the past. Was supposed to go see notorious tonight but plans changed so sarah my mija came over and we just did the dumbest shit, went to henrys, listened to booty bounce, attempted to learn the all mah single ladies dance, ate some chocolate chunk cookies, then straight cheeeilllllleeeeddd! no school tomorrow whoooo but I got work.. then probably go see sarahs game so im out. But before i go ill leave you with some pictures from the birthday festivities:

If this isnt cute, i dont know what is!



Chocolate molten lava cake



25 years+ and still goin strong


sun+rain= me feeling awkward about the weather


Supposedly this isnt part of the usual cooking routine buuuut..


there you go


eyes be so low from that chiefin. hah! i dont even know where they found this inappropriate ass chef


I made sure these hats were mandatory for the birthday babies


Were the only ones who think that were funny


But then me and my brother felt left out of the hat loop..


low and behold.. YES my sister got the snuggie she asked for for her birthday

but then we all got one too?!?!?!?


things just turned into chaos after this point


hahahaha this doesnt even display the half of it



nah my family isnt embarrassing not even halfway not even a lil bits.

PEAZ!

If its one thing you were right about

Its that yeah, I am different than other girls because other girls wouldnt of been phased the way I was. How are you gonna say that I felt tight because you wrote those songs about me? You havent even spoken one word to me since forever ago and if i did talk about it with other people, It was because i really did feel bad. When i talked about your songs with my friends, each and every one of those people would tell me i was fucked up and that its kharma and blahblah blah never did i brag..or feel good about the things you'd say about me.. but now im not so sure that im sad about the way things turned out between us. I dont know if this is the response you were looking for from all of this. &Thank you for knowing me the way you did, and being patient with me when i knew how difficult i was being, most of all! thank you for being a friend to me. but now I really DONT give a fuck. and i DONT wanna be cool. sorry but i dont have that kind of energy.

-Laleh

aint nothin to it but to do it to it

HAH we figured a semi solution for our formal crisis! jen is suddenly in with the athletic krews from her school hahaha.. so chino hills' is probably gonna go down even IF we arent going with drea and her not so cutesy bf who asked her at red robin. Today was a good day for sure! hung out with M.I.A aka my cousin that is in australia or paris or Iran who knowwww owww's these days ha? Met up at Barnes and Noble..saw some people we didnt wanna see but that wanted to see US haha! left there had subway, saw the twins! we talked and talked and talked as she used some of her psychology methods on me.. all i can say is damnnn shes gonna make a livin forsure cause her advice was on POINT. went homeee relaxed chilled out caught up on some gg and then had soccer. I heard its gonna rain tomorrow and Friday which is not so hot news[literally] haha.

Goodnights Y'alllllllll

-Laleh

WTF?

Not too recently i posted some shit on here that i later realized was far too innapppppropriate. & i knew forsure that if i left it there I would regret it later..haha. So someone gave me the wise guy idea of deleting it and MY dumbass deleted my entire blog! hahhhh..hah. At any rate! feels good to be back [okok im gay whatevy's] This week has been goin pretty nicely. Same routine as usual, just counting down days hours minutes until its time to finally graduate. Im ready for some chaaange. Speaking of, Ive been contemplating..more like harrassing my friends about opinions on whether or not i should dye my hair and my eyebrows too so it wont look weird. Tells meeee cause i dont wanna make the wrong decision then be stuckeddd.

I want to attempt and hopefully not be too bad at trying to look like Eva Mendes.


& possibly Allie Crandell holy shit Allie Crandell you dont even know how much i love her. She is just one more amazing thing to add to the cast of The City!



idk idk idk! we'll see.. in the mean time: Ill be on autopilot for the next couple of days cause for some reason i just feel draaaained. Goodnights everyone