funniest ever

where do i begin. seeing as how its 3 am right now and cant sleep..i thought i might as well get all these goddamn thoughts out of my head. the past few weeks..this past month has been upppps and downnnnss. from 30 amazing proms, getting in trouble someway somehow after prom, getting caught up with my mom. running away having my friends pick me up and having my back, bad grades and then fixing them to make em good, soccer, movin in between jobs like crazy. ughhhhhh graduation is so soon. and i know i used to say it so goddamn much before how much i hate school and cant wait to graduate. and yeah..i DO hate school..and i DO wanna graduate. but dont get me wrong. im gonna definitely miss the simplicities of high school. like jenbunney says..it only gets harder from here. My plans to move out and do big things has pretty much crumbled to shit pieces because jenny isnt even going to fullerton anymore..its so weird how fate happens. goddamn it jen! had to fuck it all up! hahh but its ok i was scared of leaving anyways..maybe it really wasnt meant to be. Ive been thanking about my beloved leaving to san fran so so so soon and i really cant handle it lately. im sorry if i push you or joke around about staying here but you have to understand that im just being selfish. i dont want things to change between us and i know people always say that t things will work out and itll all be the same as where we left off but im just scared..im willing to try it out though. arent you scared? at all? idk i still wish you the best of course. buuuut as for havin a good time and partying or whatever the fuck. lemme just say that when you see someone at a party thats like ultra cute and that youve taken interest in..and hes a pussy..its a FUCKING turnoff. omg! haahahah i just need all these moments that bring me back to the reality of things. and as for you..we'll remain friends and you wont get anything more out of me. and as for you..im sorry that we ruined momentum after prom and couldnt quite seem to get our thoughts in order. or at least mine. and as for YOU i guess im still workin on you but honestly..im getting burnt out. ayalas prom this weekend! im soOooo not excited yet hahaaha but soon hopefully..maybe by tomorrow. tomorrows senior ditch day and i gots nooo idea what im gonna do. probably just go swimmin again and relax i dont even knowww. gahh! im ready for college! drama during the last weeks of school wasnt what i was expecting..i just hope we can all move on from that. cause i promise you its really, not, that, serious. theres so much shit ive been thinking about i just totally rambled on for like the past 10 or 12 minutes. sorry. more later..

Im setting a goal

its gonna be so hard, but sooo worth it. most important rule #1 dont let school be in the backseat!
im going to college to succeed and thats IT. looking for homes is so stressful! my papa sat me down to calculate what my expenses will be like but i have a plannn..even if it means reffing almost everday of my week :/
i got this though! watch me!
jess, jen, and i are gonna be doin some BIIIIIIIGGGGGGGGG things! hollerrr

shiet

"You may not be her first, her last, or her only. She loved before, she may love again. But if she loves you now, what else matters? She's not perfect - you aren't either, and the two of you may never be perfect together but if she can make you laugh, and cause you to think twice, and admit to being a human and making mistakes, hold on to her and give her the most you can. She may not be thinking about you every second of the day - but she will give you a part of her that she knows you can break - her heart. So don't hurt her, don't change her, don't analyze and don't expect more then she can give. Smile when she makes you happy, let her know when she makes you mad, and miss her when she's not there" -Bob Marley

whas goin on with me latelehhh?! this is so out of character.. but i like it ! <33

Fast paced

What i do: I think someones attractive in at least one or two aspects..I pursue or get pursued..i rush into things too quickly..my feelings and overwhelming thoughts get way ahead of me!.. I lust, i love, i disappppoint, i disappoint myself..I drift, I turn you off, I turn my self completeeely way way off..I over analyze..I make excuses.. I think of whats missing instead of whats there..I scare and get scared..I plot out every bad situation thats going to happen..I get rid of you..then there is no more you and me. seriously, dont date me. dont even talk to me..

As for everything else going on in life! Im chillin having a good time with the people around me who wanna treat me nicely and wanna find out how nice I can treat them back! spring break is starting up and im excited! knotts, six flags, beachin, pawwwrtttyyy, slip n slide! wheeeeeEeee, and whatever else there is. I definitely wanna go back to venice cause homeboy and i went for literally a quick minute to get something in particular and it was sooo sick out there so im sad we didnt get to stay too long..next time..maybe sometime this week. prom plans are coming along too! someway! somehow! jenny managed to schmooze me into it with a certain someone. haha im just dooooin my THANGGGGGGGG. goodnight, call me!

it dont phaseeee me!

hahaha shut the fuck up and stop acting like you didnt spend a good 15-30 minutes thinking about how fucking smart you could sound. im sure that my previous blog DIDNT PHASE YOU so much that you sent me this myspace message!
YouRe HAwttt RockStaRrr!

JUST SO WERE CLEAR

i wanna let it be known that i fucking hate JUSTIN DE JESUS! that fool is a fuckin bitch who fucks with boys and girls NOT his own age. I let you talk all the shit about me that you wanted so now its my fucking turn.he's fucking pathetic and fronts like hes some amazing extraordinary steezy ass idealistic goal driven insightful fucking hipster ass fuckhead motherfucker. get your shit together and stop causing negativity in everyone elses fucking life. youll never be happy because youre too damn insecure with your own goddamn self. most importantly, you took my best friend away. for this i will NEVER EVER FORGIVE YOU. because of you, she'll be dead forever. I wont even accept you as an acquaintance. get a life and grow the fuck up, get a hobby, SHIT. youre going downhill and fast, so stop trying to take everyone else down with you. youre unsuccessful now and thats how youll always be. get the fuck out of my face! fuckkkk!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

now, if you wanna meet up in person so i can repeat all of this, and then SOME to your face, the pleasure would seriously be ALL MINE. fucking dumbfuck.

Last you heard

I was into different people, into different things, into different drugs, and had no sadies date. as of NOW!
me and jen's new favorite song is poker face, my sadies date is the infamous adrian francis, and im lovin everything about my days/weeks/months. grades were good, my family is mellow yellow, and my favorite brother in the WHOLE ENTIRE WORLD :] moved back in..temporarily of course! STHLEEPOVER!!!! but at any rate. im excitedddd for the next couple of weeks!

sadies, creation, spring break,arshias birthday, sarahs birthday pawwrty, audiotistic, brothers birthday,PROMMMM!, graduation, garduation partyy! EDC. etccccc..

HOLLER! senior year really is sicky